Every morning we awake and feel the pressures of the day crowding in on us, questions piling on in our hearts. Some of them seem very urgent and need to be taken care of on the same day that they arrive. Some don’t demand any urgency as they don’t come with the ‘priority’ tag. We develop a habit of ignoring the ones with no priority tag. As I got busy chasing my ‘dreams’, busy making new friends, busy earning more than I had ever dreamt, busy doing everything that seemed ‘urgent’. I often missed the roses and saw only the thorns. I took for granted the warmth of the sun and got depressed by the frequency of the rain or the snow (Well it’s an exaggeration; In India, we don’t have snow). I ignored the sounds of life in a nursery because I was preoccupied with the sounds of sirens responding to an emergency. I forgot the marvel of a marriage that has endured the test of time because I felt discouraged by the heartache of my own – Not making it to the end.

But the story didn’t end there. GOD made me witness the fluidity of ‘certain’ aspects of my life in a single day. Everything shattered unexpectedly on that day. GOD chose to relieve me of all the crap that I was holding on to so dearly. GOD led me through suffering, a lot of uncertainties, pain, and problems. But in all that, He was there to make me understand what is important.

 Is it worth the pain? I would have said “No” if I was asked this question at the time of my suffering. But I will say “Yes” now. Because After October 23, 2019, I started seeing life differently. I faced lesser battles. I struggled less in making decisions. You might be wondering Why I am telling all this to you. Continue reading If you like to know the answer(s).

Pause think and reflect

Sometimes it’s necessary to pause and answer some questions that we so effortlessly dismiss without giving enough thought. I avoided for a long time asking certain questions to myself because I didn’t want to dig my wounds deeper. But I once asked myself – Did I get healed completely of my past experiences? A flood of thoughts staggered my mind, of which one prevailed. “If my wounds were healed, the memories of them shall not give make me cringe in pain. “Because,” a voice within me said “I will someday bleed on the wrong person. I need to click ‘pause’ on everything else, act, and allow complete healing”. And then I asked – “Can scars remain?” Yes, scars are good reminders of the process it took for healing. They won’t pain but leave a mark for us to remember.

Later, I made it a habit to pose questions to myself. I would sit on purpose for hours together asking GOD to reveal my heart.  The goal is to know why I do certain things in certain ways. It helped me understand myself better.  It’s only through the right questions we land at the right solutions. Otherwise, instead of running longer in life, we run out of life. At every step, we need to pause, think and reflect.

Questions

What are the questions you avoid asking yourself? Why?